Wednesday, 2 December 2009
are YOU a yoga school dropout???
This is especially true for yoga teachers. I think that when we begin differentiating ourselves from other teachers' styles and training schools, we can sometimes struggle to continue our own practice! YES, that's right, all the while you have been beating yourself up for missing a yoga class, when your teacher has done the same thing!
... oh gawd, must go and put my kids into bed, they sound like a box of frogs downstairs....
where was I? So, this time of year is a challenge for all of us. Dark, rainy (how much rain has there been?!), windy conditions triggering the instinct to hibernate but you've paid for a course of classes.... hmmmm, losing a bit of money (and the bliss of yoga of course) or night in, bottle of wine and 'I'm a celebrity'? Tough choice!
In the beginning stages of your yoga practice you may not have developed enough self-awareness to realise when you have experienced a benefit or when you are feeling different. This is the challenge of being a beginner to yoga. The benefits of yoga have to out-weigh the benefits of the bottle of wine and the TV... tricky...
Even if you're commited to your yoga practice, I bet you've been in stage where you haven't wanted to go. When the TV and cosy company of your family (which probably wouldn't miss you for just one night btw!) were just too alluring.
In my opinion, that's fine. Skip a class, skip two if you feel like it.... just don't beat yourself up about it! That's a fine art to develop - non-judgement of yourself AND others.
Missing a class is one thing but feeling such shame and guilt that you forever more avoid the teacher and miss out on the amazingly beneficial effects of yoga is another.
The primary emotion can be dealt with, it's the secondary judging emotion that causes limitations in our potential for peace and happiness....
anyway, gotta go, I'm a celebrity has just started... : ) xx
Wednesday, 4 November 2009
Who are you?

Who are you?
I am Justine. I am a yoga teacher. A mother. A wife. A daughter. A sister. A design graduate. A former secondary school teacher. A member of the British Wheel of Yoga. A helper at my kid's school.
Yes, but without all that, who are you?
I am a woman. I am a housewife. I am a singer in the shower. A business woman. An aspiring authouress. A former mural artist / wedding stationer / fashion show dresser / web designer / barmaid / summer camp counsellor. A perpetual student. A tribal belly dancer.
Yes, but without all that, who are you?
I am an over-thinker. An artist. I am an ideas person. I am a yogini. I am trying to improve.
But who are you?
I am a child grown-up. A crone-in-the-making. I am a body, a mind and a heap of emotion that I am trying to understand.
Who are you?
I am confused. I am mysterious. Unknowable. Boundless. Connected. I have no idea. I know nothing. I am fizzy. Light. I am Yoga.
Sometimes, our intelligence, personality traits and lifestyle habits become a smoke-screen obscuring the simple truth of who we are. The labels that we give ourselves and that our friends, families and enemies have given us contribute to our illusion.
These labels often describe our human-ness but say nothing about our being-ness. We are all human beings, not just solid, finite, differentiated human forms but invisible, infinite, undifferentiated and formless beings - otherwise what is the difference between being dead and alive? My being-ness is the same as yours and it can't be created or destroyed!
The difference between the truth of who we are and our expectations of who we should be is where stress lies and as well as being a psycho-emotional issue, stress sits in the muscles of the body, restricting breathing and affecting our moods.
When we suffer these human limitations, we forget that we are still beings and identify soley with the frustration, the pain, the injury etc. of our human selves. We think we are just the wrapping paper and forget that we are in fact the present!
I am a human being on a journey of involution, that is a journey of returning to the source of who I am.
I see this as a lifelong process of clearing away the false judgements and labels I've allowed myself to identify with.
Yoga asanas expose us to these physical and psychological limitations in a controlled, safe environment with the aim of forging our bodies and characters. Can we face up to our limitations with compassion, contentedness and truthfulness on the mat? If so, how can anything worry us off the mat!
The guidance that the philosophy of yoga has offered me, keeps me (sometimes) on the path I have chosen. Plenty of times, at this stage of my journey, I stray, neglect myself and suffer! I become absorbed in my imperfections and illusions - the fact that I am not naturally flexible, I don't look like those bendy models in the yoga magazines and that I still get really ratty sometimes! Then, I get back on my mat, take a deep breath and stretch it all away. Yoga helps me find equanimity and it shuts up my inner bitch!
Practicing yoga hasn't made me super-human. There is no magic pill for achieving blissful enlightenment. There is a very disciplined moment by moment battle required to stay on the path of yoga. With the guidance of my being and those who've trodden the path before me... I hope my human makes it!
Wednesday, 14 October 2009
The search for Raja Yoga
Tuesday, 29 September 2009
ooooh, the sea, the sand, the sun
I went on holiday to St. Ives over the summer and as I used to live there (and still have a hankering after going back,) I thought I would get some yoga photos done whilst there. The pics on my previous site were a bit lame (taken at bro's Christmas party!) and it was to be a bit of a treat for completing my British Wheel of Yoga diploma.
I hoped that the sun, sea and sky would carry on inspiring me after my weeks break, when I returned to my usual routine - and they do! The photographer, Ricky Vitulli is some kind of magician I think (or well versed in photo editing!). If you're ever in St. Ives his company is called Kiss Photography http://www.kissphotography.co.uk/
Anyways, I hadn't expected a death defying scramble over the rocks at the back of the island or kneeling on barnacles but went with the flow! It was surprisingly hard to stand on one leg on a sloping surface with the sea refusing to keep still as well! But I'm really pleased with the results. The pics are just what I wanted, not particularly of me with cheesy grin, but more capturing a beautiful landscape and mood - with some yoga shapes thrown in.
Of course, when I saw the photos I then realised I would have to totally re-design my website to go with them (did I really of I am just OCD? the verdict's still out).
So, the new website is no longer pink mendhi patterns and hindu font, it's fresh sea blues and greens. When I look at it, it reminds me of walking round the back of the island on a very bright but blustery day and watching a seal bob up and down in the frothy waves with as much awe and wonder as my two kids! The air was so fresh, I could pratically feel every cell getting a new zingy shot of oxygen and that energy or 'prana' is what I hope to convey with the new site design.
I find St. Ives really uplifting and hope to keep that feeling in all surroundings at all times and if I can't, well I can always look to the photos and remember!
I've also added a new page about me. Hmmmm, feel a bit weird about that but there it is out there anyway and there's also the new gallery with the photos Ricky took.
And if you're curious to know what 'prana' is, there's also an essay that may make this mysterious concept a little clearer.
no need to read - just checking my blog feed!
Thursday, 9 July 2009
What a week!
It started on the 30th June when I spent the day teaching every class in a primary school 30 minutes yoga. I did 8 classes back-to-back for their sports day, with the aim that they would learn some relaxation skills.
It went really well, we funked up Surya Namaskar with music from MC Yogi before bathing in a rainbow during the relaxation with lavender eye bags.
On the 2nd July, I presented a yoga session for parents and their toddlers to the Family Learning Centre in Leasowe. The parents really enjoyed trying Nadi Sodhana, alternate nostril breathing and of course, no one complained when they had to lie down without the kids for a few minutes!
Two days later, I ran my first yoga retreat day at Burton Manor. Thank you to everyone who attended, you left such great feedback, here's just a few comments...
"Thanks Justine. What a lovely introduction to yoga philosophy and practice. Loved the variety of practice and techniques today. Especially the physical yoga and the focussed meditation using sight and sound at the end. Thanks again. Will see you at the next course."
" - Well balanced experience of Yoga
- Relaxation and breathing techniques will be useful
- The deep breathing taught at the beginning was useful throughout
- One day is not enough!!!
- I really enjoyed the last session, the chanting, Bee Breathing"
"Thoroughly enjoyed the day. Very interesting - good explanations of what Yoga actually is. Feel I want to do more. Very informative and very relaxed - there is a lot more to Yoga than I realised. Thank you, Allison."
"Thanks Justine for a great day. It went too quick, even though I have been to your class, I learnt new things. Shelley"
"Really enjoyable - enjoyed every minute. Beverley"
"Really enjoyed the day - very friendly and relaxed. Very glad I came despite the bad shoulder! Hadn't realised that I already do many of the physical exercises at my 'bums and tums' class. Hadn't done the breathing stuff before though - felt great benefit from the nostril 'thing' (!) and it's so easy to remember - nor had I done the meditative stuff which I found really helpful. Hope to get the shoulder fixed so I can come to other sessions. Thank you!" (Ann)
What a fantastic venue for a yoga retreat, I'll definately be going back. In fact, I've been asked to do more events and I know that next time I'll be offering a beginners introductory day and then a variety of theme based events for the more experienced.
The next beginners day is Saturday 16th January 2010 and for those with more than 3 months practice, I'll be running, "Yoga Song and Dance" on February 13th 2010. This will explore the free flowing movements of Vinyasa Yoga, Yoga Trance Dance along with some kirtan chanting and mantra meditation.
Anyway, after that I had 4 days normal timetable and homework time before my FCA, Final Class Assessment for my British Wheel of Yoga 3 year Diploma which completes next month.
I'm pleased to say that I passed and got some lovely comments from my assessor Rosemary.
Meanwhile, my husband has been climbing Mont Blanc and should have been summitting just as I was being assessed this morning! This has added to my anxiety levels somewhat and although I'm pleased and relieved to have had such positive feedback from one of the 'Big Cahuna's' within the Wheel, I still have a little knot in my stomach until I get that phone call that he's down safely... maybe I should try Garudasana (my peak posture this morning) - a great stress reliever and take a bit of my own medicine!
All that's left now is my last course assessment at the penultimate meeting with the BWY this Sunday where I'm teaching headstand to the class. Then next week, my Karmatime kids have their end of term certificate - Yoga Trance Dancing to Nataraja, then a funky vinyasa dance to Jai Ho from Slumdog Millionaire and then.......
IT'S THE SUMMER HOLIDAY!!!!!
No work for 6 weeks! Looking forward to it x
Friday, 24 April 2009
Serendipity
- noun
1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident
2. good fortune; luck: the serendipity of getting the first job she applied for
(from www.dictionary.com)
I had a meeting today with the workshop co-ordinator at Burton Manor to discuss my forthcoming yoga retreat day on Saturday 4th July and to plan some future events.
The venue is fantastic, if a little frayed around the edges but full of potential which doesn't seem to have been exploited yet (maybe that's whats nice about it). The grounds are stunning and overlook the Dee Estuary and Wales beyond.
The room I'm hoping to run the retreat in is amazing with intricately painted plaster-work on the ceiling and enormous windows and doors opening onto the Dee view and gardens.
I was having a lovely time being given the guided tour (I love noseying round places!) when we came across the atelier, or artists studios. In the first studio there was a lady specializing in stained glass.
What a co-incidence! (I don't believe in co-incidence btw) I was just talking to my husband last night whilst watching Kirsty Allsops programme, "Kirsty Makes Totally Twee-but-lovely Stuff for Her Brand New Irritatingly Perfect Cottage by the Sea in Devon" - I think that's the name of the programme anyway... (green-eyed monster alert!).
She goes round hand making items for her new home and last night made a stained glass panel for the bathroom. Jim (hubby) said he'd like to learn about stained glass as a hobby and I said, "I bet they do that at Burton Manor".
No sooner said than done, the artist in question is running a course this Sunday! (Day before my anniversary, might make nice present?) What serendipity - it's not every day that you get that word into a conversation... I even slipped in the even bigger word 'serendipitous' whilst talking with George (bloke from Burton Manor) - I was quite pleased with myself, although I think he just thought I had a bit of a stutter and I'm not entirely sure if that is a real word.
Anyway, in the next studio was an artist and when we had been introduced her and her friend said that they'd really like to come on the yoga retreat. I spotted her business card and realised that I had phoned her just the night before, leaving a message on her machine about tutoring (her side-line) ... world of the strange...
Then, after chatting for a while and looking round the grounds I had a brainwave. I have been trying to get the 'Fairy Fair' (magical fantastic eccentricty rolled into a weekend) to come to the North West for over 2 years now and have wondered about a suitable venue. This place has 15 acres and could be just the spot... I don't know if anything will come of it yet but I've put the two in touch and am hoping I can get involved in someway.
The Fairyland Trust is a charity set up to educate and inspire children (and parents) about nature and conservation. I went to their Fair last year in Norfolk and it was probably the best event I've been to (since having kids!). It really rekindles the wonder of childhood through magical workshops, teaching you how to make REAL magic potions, fairy crowns, houses, wands, you can learn cookery from trolls, hear stories from travelling wizards and receive wisdom from the Electro-Gliding Angels. It's random, surreal and fabulous!
If I could play even a small part in bringing this event to this region, I would be really happy and it will help me in my endeavour to become fully eccentric by the time I'm old (not sure when that will be but plan to dye hair pink and ride motorbike).
So, that's where yoga has lead me today! To a number of serendipitous possibilities...
By the way, for details about my yoga retreat, visit www.yogawirral.co.uk/yoga_events.html



